Good Things Come to Those Who....Wait?!

Is this true, or is it something we tell ourselves while we are waiting? This is an interesting phrase because our culture has become one of instant gratification. We have fast food, stores that are open 24 hours, drive thrus (see even the word is shorter!), DVRs; you get the point practically everything is ours for the taking day or night. Our society is also based upon the Puritan work ethic and a 'pull yourself up by your bootstraps' mentality. We don't really like to wait for things. We like to work for them and achieve them. Unfortunately, you can't fool Mother Nature. I feel like my life has become one long waiting game. Everyday seems to drag on indefinitely. I wait all day to go to sleep so I can wake up and take my temperature (temp). For those of you who aren't versed in the bible of baby makin' (Taking Charge of Your Fertility by Toni Weschler) your basal body temperature (BBT) will rise significantly and stay up if you have in fact ovulated. Then you put these lovely numbers on a chart along with you cervical mucous (CM). Oh yes, my friends you dig in your 'hoo and analyze your cervical mucous...sorry Dad and the faint of heart. BTW fertile CM looks just like egg whites! So everyday as soon as my alarm goes off I temp and pray that maybe today is the DAY, maybe I ovulated, maybe I am not broken! It's never the day though...I haven't ovulated in about 9-10 months, but everyday I wait and I hope. Nothing like a great big glass of disappointment to start your day! I digress...the Waiting is part of the Cruelty of Infertility Trifecta, it is accompanied by Hope and Disappointment. You wait to for your period to end, then you wait to ovulate, then you wait to see if you're pregnant, then you wait for your period to start, and then repeat ad nauseum! I feel like my life is broken into two week chunks of time. I hate living a life where I am wishing the day would just end so I can start again. I want to be able to enjoy my life and have fun. I want to be innocent again. I don't want to know about the baby makin' bible. I don't want to wait anymore; good and bad things happen to me regardless of the wait time.