Addict

Why can't I control myself? Why do I have to pee on every stick I have in the house? I know that 9dpo (days past ovulation) is waaaaay too early, I know that 10dpo is still very early, yet I pee and pray. Now I am feeling discouraged and angry at myself. No good can come from POAS early, unless of course you are in fact pregnant. I suppose that is the crux of the whole dang problem.

After seeing the stark white test this morning I began to make myself the same old promises; "I won't POAS until 14dpo, I won't, I really won't.' Who am I kidding? I know I'll hit the Dollar Tree this afternoon and restock. This way I don't feel guilty about wasting money on the negative pee sticks. I even visited peeonastick.com this morning to see which brands detected the lowest amount of hcG. I found one that detected 12.5mL lab studies; that's probably half the amount in other brands, but their official position is still 25mL so I'm not sure that I can justify it.

Until, tomorrow or maybe not. I'm really, really, really going to try not to test until Saturday!!! I Promise!!!