Infertility really brought me back to God. Say what you will, but I needed Him to get me through this. I knew nothing else would really help. I didn't know and still don't know what God's plan is for me, but I knew that if I couldn't have bio children that I would need something to lean on. I don't know if it's hypocritical to turn to God only when something bad happens, but I hope not. Anyway...I have this bible that has a reading for everyday of the year. The week of our IUI my passages were all about Sarah, perhaps the most famous infertile of all! She said something to the effect of "God gave me laughter" when speaking of becoming pregnant at long last. I think she was speaking of the irony of having a child so late in life, and overcoming infertility even thought no one really believed she would. This is what I began praying for...laughter. I wanted to laugh at my situation, laugh in infertility's face, and hear the laughter of my child.
This baby is a miracle. Despite the drugs, the doctors, and the IUI this baby's only creator is God. I will never stop thanking Him for blessing me again.
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I stumbled upon your blog a few days ago and I have to say your story is amazing. And this post...this post is awesome! The last line says it all. I go in for my first IUI next cycle, and hopeully God will bless me as well. I am so happy for you, my new stranger-friend in cyber space! :-)Thank you for writing this blog and for having and sharing your faith!
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